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Jurgen Colin are just 23 years, but find that he for a long time a fixed basisplaats at PSV must. The verdediger puts question signs at the purchase policy of the end court ears. The arrival of the braziliaan Alex and the return of Michael Lamey puts him to thinking, just like the club culture of PSV. ` why youth gets here little chance? ` after I returned of my year on hiring basis with NAC breda, I it has with difficulty had this season at PSV. The level lies a step higher and I had be possible my place in the group find. The last five duels I however with initiative has played. That is weakness still my, I must show more lef in the field, but must nobody look itself concerning my football qualities to make. The lack of bravoure has do also with the position on which I play. As a rechtsback is differently play soccer than as central verdediger, my favoriete spot. I can explain it very with difficulty, it is a feeling which I have. In my game and in my head I feel limit myself if I to the line zit chained. Thus I experience that. You have too few afspeelmogelijkheden as a back: you can only ahead or. I need correctly people for me gone, thereby I feel myself much more pleasantly. Then can I push through and have to I more options choose a continuation. I play rather with upheaval, as a result of which I am forced faster make choices. My qualities are exploited also better as centrumverdediger. But at this moment I have to require little, I can glad be that I get a fixed basisplaats at PSV. A couple weeks suffered zat I not entirely nice in my vel in end courts. I started to mezelf, doubt because I pair after basis places on the bank arrived. I need correctly much faith of a coach. If I have the feeling that that is lacking - rightly or undeserved - then think I that it lies to mezelf and will I worry. I am not someone who steps at that moment to the coach and for explanation asks. Whereas Guus have indicated Hiddink in a conversation that I improve that much can do. He state open for opinions of others and finds that players of it also must use. I have planned myself that also the next time to do. Then is you it immediately lost and is possible you further. Differently head you emotions and are themselves wait for until that to outside come. I had the confidence previous season at NAC breda much. There have I heal myself well developed, especially because I an important player had become. Everything go then lekkerder. You feel you more pleasant and doubt if you manage the level, however. Then you a certain substance feels come in your body, as a result of which you very powerful and a type gets invincible irradiation. Needed that I also, because the year before I had a very nasty experience at RC Genk. PSV lent me from to that Belgian club, but already fast appeared that a game had been played with me. Coach Sef Vergoossen considered me only as temporary supplement, until of its players returned of the tournament for Africa cup. Suddenly put he me back to the second elftal and got I all kinds of reproaches which I would be not professional. I felt myself abuse. In an interview Vergoossen have later even concerning me said that I had eaten seven biscuits instead of my meal. What a bulls**t! Toch I thought in that period that it would come no longer well with me. What I had n? found oneself done and how wouldn't PSV think, however, concerning me? My matter observer Hakim Slimani, my family and friends ?cht on me have had talk into that I had trust to keep and had continue work rapidly. I have also passed that period because I have more strongly become of the past. When I played soccer still in the second elftal of PSV, I had with Tonny do bruins lock (meanwhile assistant coach of Ajax, red.). Under its control returned I of a blessure which me eight has kept months on the side. Normally the time gives a player you to repair quietly, but bruins lock came immediately with all kinds of reproaches. I could do none well more in its eyes. Consequence was that he put me back to the amateurs of PSV. I z? had deeply slid down. I played duels with boys who sat according to me a day for the game still nice in the kroeg. It did not run also total, because we stood degrade on the point. I became crazy. You go slowly the tales which are told concerning you yourself also believe. I had the idea that I could ?cht no longer play soccer. The first elftal of PSV I already from my head had then entirely put. Then I have turned the knob. I am rock-hard for mezelf will train, because I had to nothing lose more, lower than this was not possible. That I have come eventual nevertheless across, am especially a victory on mezelf. As from that moment I knew that nobody could make me more in my life. The attitude of bruins lock was also a stimulant further fight. When we won last of Ajax, I have just as run along him. I have said nothing, but my can was sufficient. He dares me also not even more say gedag. I have partly on the street developed that mental hardness also. I grew up at the hillock in Overvecht, a difficult buurt where much happened. I had got used it, but if someone from end courts there for the first time naartoe would go, I do not think that he will feel himself really safe. With my brother we always played Michael against other groups in the district. He was rock-hard for me, sometimes even z? terrible that I stood crying on the field. It was also important, renounce because if you lost a party, then you had because of the upheaval twenty minutes guards before you could play. That was not possible of course, there were we too much liefhebber for. On the street we had our own laws. In fact there were therefore no rules, surroundings were in which stipulated the natural hierarchy what happened there. My brother was of the sterkeren. There were also weleens scuffles, but I have never come in the problems, because the other boys knew that they would encounter then Michael. We were examples for others. By my football qualities I moved over slowly in the hierarchy. Even old people who were their for letting the dog out, gave compliments me. I felt there for the first time respect. Ibrahim Affelay, my ploeggenoot of PSV, also played in the buurt. He told me last still that everyone was this way under the impression of me. If people heard that I played soccer there, they came look at immediately. In a certain manner I have education also my there enjoyed. I was find there always and conformed myself to the rules which dominated there. I have not learned especially frightened, be because they run differently concerning your gone. They must correctly frightened for j?? becomes. That must I now at PSV still more show to my antagonist. I hang at a found oneself ball still too frequently with my head down. I cannot to marks leave that it touches me if I make foutje. It is still the uncertainty in me. Of course I have experienced that there improve boys on the small square then do not have I but it had been saved. They arrived on the found oneself path and did not have mentality which is succeed necessary. But that I in the youth of PSV has also seen. For the ?chte good players it was made too easy. They had the support of the coach in a certain reinflation, but did not grow as a result, their mental resistance. If they got then suddenly with developements or make coaches of who the n??t in them saw sitting, the slap much arrived harder. I have never had a coach who could me really. But as a result I have been possible prepare myself always to developements. I have to a certain degree of freedom necessary feel me nicely. Sometimes it is will listen finely ordinary your own pace and not always to the coach. That I really gladly a time wants do. Simply nicely dribble. That ball catches and g??n, like on the street. And not continuously that getik. Sometimes I think really of in former days. Then it was laughed much more. I find the football in the Netherlands also insipid become. Give me but United Kingdom or Spain. Here is only long balls, only Ajax to see I still weleens well playing. I consider football still as my hobby, but it becomes continuously more serious. Sometimes I try, however, make fun, but have then you two boys who participate with you, whereas the rest does not react. In football you no friends, also your have not plough-enjoyed. On the training field you must tackle simply everyone. It is everyone for itself. You operate as a team, but you must think of yourself. I weet not exact what is with this PSV to the hand there. Now there at our some boys leave, we will obtain undoubtedly good substitutes, but I place my question signs at the choices. Soon Michael Lamey come (now let to FC, saves Utrecht.) and Alex both for my position to end courts. And it is with Andr? Ooijer, Kevin court country, by B?gelund, Wilfred Bouma, Eric Addo and mezelf already this way busy in the back of. I find it strange. It is the choice of PSV real with youth players not work, but in my opinion must you nevertheless to the future look at. That does not happen here real. Only Wilfred Bouma and Ernest Faber comes from its own training, whereas the club to Bj?rn of of the aims and Patrick Paauwe has let go. I find that there soon new, fresh blood must come. PSV must will live. When I Ajax previous season with all those young boys in the Champions League saw game, I really enjoyed them. As PSV also youth the chance gives, then you and the irritated or bozige gedoe no longer gets more environment and joy in the group. At NAC there was solidarity also more. In the kleedkamer the radio pleased rock-hard and could you dance and sing. If I that here do, will them immediately think that I am a vedette. The footballer Jurgen Colin is also complete differently than the person Jurgen Colin. He who me would see on the street, me no longer recognises. Then I am to for laughing, dancing, jump and shouts. But at PSV I cannot behave myself compared with those older boys this way. That finds I jammer.

Posted By: Old Git, Jul 22, 14:06:35