You appear to be consumed by the fear that you don't know for certain

It is clear that you are a very 'controlling' person. Interesting behavioural transference too?the very aggressive nature of the post suggesting that you are not a fan of the real you.
A good psychotherapist would unravel you relatively quickly I suspect.
It may be worth seeing your GP or perhaps sitting down with someone you trust to discuss your feelings as you go into 2014. I'm picking up alarm bells which seem to suggest that you are on the verge of something unfortunate mentally.

Posted By: Upperjarroldmiddle, Jan 7, 14:50:49