heh heh yep Jumbo, just have to do my Chinese's with cash, got a basic account..

so can just get cash. No more mad betting though, which is good. I'm not good with it, won that big bet and thought I could make a career of it, then lost it, then had to borrow from pay day companies and got myself in a big big mess, ?1382 monthly salary in March on the 1st, ?112 on the 2nd once payday loans taken there money. Manic stuff and stupid really but I get myself in a mess. With the recovery team now at helesdon which is good, never should have turned down the help/stopped the medication but it is hard to keep taking the tablets and help when you just want to be like everyone else. Doesn't excuse the gambling stupidity, new what I was doing, didn't know how to stop it. Have now, Father and Brother taken over - not people to trifle with, just the way it's going to have to be for a year or so and when i'm better, gradually have more control. Never ungrateful for what I have but when my brother kind of brings it home as to things, it's time I just accept the help and get better, and I will. Love my house. :O) OTBC Problem is, and people who have mental health problems will get it as will many, when ill and you don't tell people it gets to a crisis because all you do is live for another day, doesn't feel like there's a future. Not even next week, or tomorrow, just today so nothing matters and you stop thinking about people that matter. Horrible thing but this is the start of me getting better. Things will be getting better and the Wrath will begin to see it. :)

Posted By: DrDublin, May 13, 19:19:12