As a kid I was diagnosed with ADHD, But as with a lot of kids from my generation it was over diagnosed and miss diagnosed in a lot of cases too. As I've got older and certain symptoms got worse and changed . . . The spending a months wages in 30 minutes, Going out on 5 day benders at a time, rushing around looking for any high I could (recreationals included) Been rushed to hospital where I was convinced I was having heart attacks and strokes etc as severe anxiety tore me apart and made me a shell of myself. Not shaving, hardly bathing, same clothes most days despite a very full wardrobe. Complete fear of the outside (the amount of times i got 1 minute into a 5 minute journey and turned back you would not believe) And large crowds? forget about it!!! The extreme insomnia. Night really is the worst, Noone generally about to chat to, the quote "night time is the worst time to be alive and 4am knows all my secrets" doesn't half hit the nail on the head. In the end I was diagnosed with a form of bipolar called "madd" or mixed axiety depression disorder. . . So years of medication followed Paroxetine, Citalopram, prozac, Venlafaxine, through to lithium. . . In the last 8 years I've been on dozens of medications, they'll work for a few months before a crushing break down, each one seeming worse than the last. . . I too know what it's like to stare at a bottle of Vodka and a unlimted supply of sleeping tablets at silly o'clock in the morning. . . But i'm on steady medication now and in a good place, have been for a while and I'm starting my new job on tuesday. . . So when I say I know what you're going through I really do and anytime you need someone to chat to ring me or txt me anytime you like. 07805283450
Posted By: Alan, Aug 26, 13:56:14
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